I’ve spent so much energy worrying about my son’s condition, I have missed what a blessing it is in many ways.
He gives me absolutely no attitude. If I ask him to do something, he does it, period. Understanding how difficult it is for him to adapt to change, he works very hard to keep himself under control. When I say, “I need a minute,” he leaves me alone. He cooks, he cleans, he loves animals. What more can a mom ask for?!
I’ve had a few dreams recently where I had autism. It was like I was experiencing life as my son does and it was extremely stressful! Much of the time, I didn’t understand what was going on and didn’t know what was going to happen. I started wanting to hum and flap to keep myself from throwing a tantrum.
Yesterday, after the rest of the family left, my son and I started cleaning his room. His last guinea pig recently died and he’s come to the conclusion he does not want another pet that needs liter (horray!). As we were going through old papers, he knew exactly what he wanted to keep and what he wanted to throw away. Some grown ups I know have difficulty determining that.
After we cleaned his room, we went for a run. Running is one of the few things we have in common. I try to learn about his favorite superheros and Greek mythology characters but they aren’t really my thing. I don’t like to play video games. I try to support him in his sports but if he wasn’t playing them, I wouldn’t be at the games.
My son is growing into a man! This blows my mind. I remember holding him as a baby and wondering what kind of man he would be (At only 19 years old, I was arguably still a child myself). So far, I see a very honest, kind, hard working, determined man who is going to be a blessing to everyone who takes the time to let him into their lives.
Time flies and if I don’t reflect on and appreciate what I have, I miss out on it completely.
John Lennon said it best with :”Life is what happens while you’re busy making other plans.”.
I am grateful for my life!
From my heart to yours
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